A familiar face, A familiar name

I realized
My love was dead
for years

For the face I saw
Few days past
Was just another face
Like his

For the name I uttered
Few months past
Was just another name
Like his

But it was not him
At all.

A stranger I recognize.

But not a love
I used to know.

It was just
Another familiar face
Another familiar name
I see in a street.

 

 

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Sunsets

He was just like a sunset
Beautifully peaceful
Calming in every sense
He was an ending
Of a beautiful day
And a dawning
Of a lonely night

And she,
She was an ocean
Always calling for his name
But when he finally arrives
Takes a minute or two to stay,

And at night,
She just shine
Knowing her love is gone
She roars the tides
Some drown in her
Some live
She roars, regardless
For the love it will see again
But never stay

Tenant

You were just like the darkness in a tunnel
I once walked in…
There was a clue I will be getting in there,
Then one fine day
I was inside that tunnel
I saw you
Your chest,
Empty,
I do not get to see first
And so I came
Little by little
Because
I saw
You
But…
I never get to see everything that will follow
But who cares
You were my home
And now
You are a closed door
And I,
A tenant waiting outside
Waiting for the doors to open
But you were locked
So I stayed
Waited
Kissed the rain
Felt the sun lighting on my face
Days and days passed
Years
Decades
Centuries
There was a notice
That you were never going to open
And so I smiled
And one fine day
Waited still
For the rays of the sun
For the rain to drop
I can’t tell the difference anymore
between a sunny and a rainy day
Between summer and winter
I can barely tell
Everything felt
Just the same
Before you came,
Pointless.

Solitude

And before I shut everybody out
May you be at the front door
Holding, Gasping the spaces
For it is dark inside this walls I built
I never liked hiding here.
But every time pain visits,
I go inside
For peace
For serenity
Because
I waited for you
And you
Never came
That’s why,
I had to learn how to survive – alone.

Remember, I love you

You were always far away to me
A distant dream
That I only catch
When I close my eyes

I whispered to the air
Long before
I saw you

And I knew,
Prayers are answered
Dreams do come true

And I felt this love
That has been written
Long before

I felt this love
And now,
It’s happening

It’s making me afraid
To leave
Without having to feel this

But somehow,
A promise is being made

A promise of forever
To always remember

This love, that I feel
I will treasure

And I promise to remember
Everything about you
I will carry through

Love

Love doesn’t ask much;
She knew she doesn’t have to.

Love knew that though he was breaking her heart,
He was protecting her in the meanest and kindest way possible.

Love knew that a hard labor can only buy her a pair of hairclip;
So she let her hair down instead.

Love knew pain like her best friend;
yet, love also knows forgiveness.

Love knew life was hard already
So she held his hand and never let him go.

Clean

I thought I prefer to see his face
With no beard nor mustache;

But when I saw him,
I knew I was wrong;

And all the ideas of him
Was gone from my head
I knew I was seeing the man that he is;
The raw, the 2 AM version of him
Is standing right in front of my very eyes

But I still got razor in my hand
And a cream;
I was waiting for my turn,
But when he came to me,

I just stared at him like an idiot,
Smiling,
Throwing a glance on his pretty damn eyes
Admiring the mess in his baffling face.

Him

Imagine a woman sitting on a couch and a man opening the door, with those heavy footsteps, he enters the room, towards the 5 1/2 people in the room.
All the time, she was looking at him, these are her thoughts:

There he walked into the room
Every step he took
Seemed like heavy years
In my heart being taken out

There he sat,
In front of me
I looked at his face
Memorizing every detail

Then I looked at his eyes
And I recognized
It was my true love

The one that had never come
Until that day…
The feeling was unexplainably beautiful
Just like his sad eyes

 

On our way out

One day, I walked past a road
Then get stuck in a tunnel of black
Real black darkness,
Sadness, therein.
And on the mid-road of the tunnel
I saw those eyes speaking red
Glaring fumes of sadness in bed
I saw his empty chest; his heart being taken out
By a monster that had disappeared way past;
A memory which haunted his dearest heart
I reached for my heart; though still bleeding
And touched his face as I gave him my heart
With glimmering bliss;
And on that tunnel we walked out both
We felt the light beaming in our faces
Suddenly our breathe were warm
We felt life again.
Love was there again.
Love has always been there.
I looked at my chest, it was empty.
I had no heart. It was already his.
It was his, in the first place.

Heal

Take me back to the time
When we would smile
And my mom would shoot you
And I would block the bullet
And I would hug your silhouette

And we would meet at the street
And you would say that I can pass by
And we would meet like we’ve never been hurt
Like we’ve never cried
Like we’ve never been wrecked

Take me back to the time
When the streets call my name
And you would drive at 2 AM
And there would be just the same
There will only be your name

And we would love like there has never been pain
Like we weren’t been two broken pieces
Trying to heal each other for so long
But afraid to go after our home
So I look out and see you walking pass by me

No Goodbyes

In another time
In another place
Maybe in another space
You will look into my eyes
I will see your face
And we will fall in love again

You will come and find me

I will look and see you
Our hearts will beat faster
This bond will be so much stronger
There will be no goodbyes
Just our hello and our smiles

In another time and place
We will meet and we will love again

Maybe love

Maybe love…

Maybe love is when you spend dinner with someone you love or maybe love is when you eat a hot soup in a cold weather with him by your side.

Maybe love is when you share an earpiece with him to watch your favorite movie or maybe love is when you hid your umbrella just to be under his’.

Maybe love is when you pretend to sleep at the bus, on the plane or jeepney just to get close to him or maybe love is when you struggle to stay awake but you fall asleep a minute after he said “it’s okay if you want to sleep”.

Maybe love is when you savor the moment you had that Saturday night – that chitchat you had with him while he’s playing songs on his phone or maybe love is when you want to tell him every inch of feeling you have for him but you were so awkwardly muted.

Maybe love is when you want to take care of him badly or maybe love is when you want to hold his hand and say “just hold on. Everything will be alright”.

Maybe love is when you lose yourself in .5 seconds at the smell of his perfume – even when he’s not around or maybe love is what makes your hands sway as parallel as his.

Maybe love is when you miss him so you count the days until you’ll see him again or maybe love is when you badly want to hug him every time you part ways.

Maybe love is what your heart longs for and what your soul craves, for too long now or maybe love is just around the corner waiting to be found.

So look closely. Don’t let love pass by. Hold her tight before she leaves, before she slips away. Tell him how you feel so he will not wonder –

Why your brain isn’t working properly lately; why you were smiling like an idiot at the thought of him; why you were always checking on him – to the point that he gets irritated on you; why you had those sudden ups and downs.

Maybe love can sometimes hurt but maybe love is worth the pain because you’ll never know when it comes, when it leaves; you’ll never know if it will come again; or maybe love is just as wonderful as he is.

The Feels

Dreams fall in your heart
Like mist roaming at night
Leaves fall like those tears
Some days, you will have to fear

But I won’t let them get to you
It’s like I can do so few
Dark days may be ahead
But the flame of my love will mend

Clearing the sky for you
So you can see through
You’re a unique soft soul
Wrapped in a stone

A fist so hard to resist
But can’t see its worth
You’re a gem so rare
That I so love to stare at.

 

Good Song Spotted: Stuck by Darren Espanto

When I first heard this song, the lyrics and melody captured me right away.

While listening to it, I thought that the one who wrote it is a brave one. To tell and to confess those things speaks so much bravery. There could be a point when one was a fool, but accepting it is something.

The writer of this song must be really talented being able to put such emotions to words.

I thought it was sung by a woman. So I searched for it and came to find out that it was Darren Espanto who sang it.

Here’s the lyrics:

I was too dumb to notice
That there’s something about you
What am I supposed to do
I sure wish I knew

All the butterflies I felt inside
Never really mattered
Wishful thoughts and sudden smiles
End up being shattered

What are we supposed to be
I’m hopelessly addicted to you
But you never felt the same

Time may pass us by
But you’ll stay stuck on my mind
And that moment we stared that night
I thought it was right
But maybe I was wrong all along

I held onto something that never really mattered
Stuck on that starting line
I’m still silently, quietly hoping you’ll end up with me

I was too dumb to notice
There was something about you
How are you supposed to see things
If only you knew

All the times we were together
I never really mattered
All you see is what you want
My heart is being shattered

What are we supposed to be
I’m helplessly addicted to you
But you never felt the same

Time may pass us by
But you’ll stay stuck on my mind

And that moment we stared that night
I thought it was right
But maybe I was wrong all along

I held onto something that never really mattered
Stuck on that starting line
I’m still silently, quietly, hoping you’ll end up with me

Time may pass us by
But you’ll stay stuck on my mind
And that moment we stared that night
I thought it was right

Time may pass us by
But you’ll stay stuck on my mind
And that moment we stared that night
I thought it was right
But maybe I was wrong all along

I held onto something that never really mattered
Stuck on that starting line
I’m still silently, quietly hoping you’ll end up with me

I was too dumb to notice
That there’s something about you
What am I supposed to do if
I’m still stuck on you

And the video: