Maybe love

Maybe love…

Maybe love is when you spend dinner with someone you love or maybe love is when you eat a hot soup in a cold weather with him by your side.

Maybe love is when you share an earpiece with him to watch your favorite movie or maybe love is when you hid your umbrella just to be under his’.

Maybe love is when you pretend to sleep at the bus, on the plane or jeepney just to get close to him or maybe love is when you struggle to stay awake but you fall asleep a minute after he said “it’s okay if you want to sleep”.

Maybe love is when you savor the moment you had that Saturday night – that chitchat you had with him while he’s playing songs on his phone or maybe love is when you want to tell him every inch of feeling you have for him but you were so awkwardly muted.

Maybe love is when you want to take care of him badly or maybe love is when you want to hold his hand and say “just hold on. Everything will be alright”.

Maybe love is when you lose yourself in .5 seconds at the smell of his perfume – even when he’s not around or maybe love is what makes your hands sway as parallel as his.

Maybe love is when you miss him so you count the days until you’ll see him again or maybe love is when you badly want to hug him every time you part ways.

Maybe love is what your heart longs for and what your soul craves, for too long now or maybe love is just around the corner waiting to be found.

So look closely. Don’t let love pass by. Hold her tight before she leaves, before she slips away. Tell him how you feel so he will not wonder –

Why your brain isn’t working properly lately; why you were smiling like an idiot at the thought of him; why you were always checking on him – to the point that he gets irritated on you; why you had those sudden ups and downs.

Maybe love can sometimes hurt but maybe love is worth the pain because you’ll never know when it comes, when it leaves; you’ll never know if it will come again; or maybe love is just as wonderful as he is.

Memory Lane

I got down
And see the street lights
The cars passing by
Stuck in the headlight

I’ve seen bestfriends become lovers
We’ve eaten their left overs
What’s left with us,
Is the piece of junk way back past.

I’ve watch lovers love
Like I did before
I’ve watched them fall apart
I’ve felt their beating heart

Baby there’s no ticket to the past
There’s nothing you can do
We didn’t make it last
Just throw your love to the past

Recovery

She takes a deep breath
Not minding tomorrow
Not thinking about yesterday
She steps slowly
To the shadows of her dark past

Slowly tears fell from her eyes
She was burnt long before she knew
She can no longer handle the storm inside her

She then disappeared
And through silence, she recovered
And long gone, she flew again
With her wings, all back in
With her spirit whole again

She was a girl with a fragile heart
Nobody saw her fall apart
No one knew she’s got a soft feeling
That can easily break with your screaming.

Down & Defeated

A poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

I’m gasping for my breath
While you count the days ahead
There’s nothing much more to say
I wish we could forever stay

I cried alone outside
As if the air can understand my pain
As if I can just put this love aside
As if my heart can still beat tonight

Cuts from my left to your right
And my pulse is on the line
And you believed that I was all fine
Not seeing that I had cuts all over my hand

I thought you will be my eye
But you take away my sight
And threw me down while I was blind
And that free fall took away my life.

Dark Room

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Source: Google Images

A poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

A Dark Room
And a line of light
I see from the window
As I lie sorrowed

Tears starts to flow
As the thoughts began to storm
My head was taken by the rain
It was not winter;
but my heart got frozen

If only cuts would stop these tears
If only bruises will take away my fears
But no, it wouldn’t do me anything
Just had me lying in this dark room forever.

When love fades

A Poem by:  Maria Elena Bitare

When love fades
another heart aches
Tears flow
Pain continues to grow

When love fades
And her love stays
Pain linger
She’s forgotten forever

When his love fades
She had her darkest days
She wishes there’s a reset button
But he just wants to move on

Careless

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

Am I just more than a broken piece?
More than what you can hold and kiss?
Cause I am like a broken nail in my hands
You just know to hold but never share a glance

So walk away and don’t look at me
Stay five meters, don’t say you love me
Cause you never care at all
You never said, you’ll never will

Too Late to Hold you

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

I would lose all the bucks that I have
All the make-up I use to cover up
But you’re too far to reach,
Too strong to win.

I would lose all the time I left
Just to be still in your arms
But you’re too stiff to ruin
Too late to forgive.

Nothing left to argue about
Nothing left to compromise
From the beginning, we ruined the start
Now it’s the end of our loving hearts.

Poetic Blue

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

Sadness from yesterday lingers
Inducing tears in my system
No way to mend, no way to ease
Just a piece of scratch to start

I guess I’ll start from scratch
Then stretch and reach you out
How I can teach my heart
To move on without tearing it apart

Where do I begin? How do I start?
If all I want is you from the very start?
Blank papers and lost answers
My tears mixed your waters.

Look at Me now

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

Her eyes ain’t dry
In her smiles, she hides
He didn’t see her die
He can’t tell by her radiant smile

No one has stared at her
No one felt her pain deeper
No one tried to look at her
No one had seen her suffer

Look into her eyes and you’ll see
The pain I hide from you could be
The reason why I can’t look at you
There’s a pain you never knew

Crashing

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

Two couples walking in the rain
One girl staring at the window, in pain
Loud music keeps me awake
For he gave me the pain I couldn’t take

The show must go on, I must smile
Pretend as if I feel that he’s still mine
I’m gonna let my first tear fall
Make myself believe that I didn’t cry at all

Transparent Eyes

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

Transparent eyes
Don’t let my tears fall
Don’t let him know
That he pulled me down and low

Don’t let him know
I’m torn into pieces
Fake and bitter kisses
On my cheeks they landed

Transparent eyes
Don’t shed a single tear
Don’t show emotions
Don’t let him know I’m here
– tears

Rain and in Pain

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

Rain keeps pouring in
Sad music, she can’t stop the pain
Just lying in, dreaming
Setting her mind as if she’s staying

It’s hard to hold on
when all you want to do is walk away
She said as she looked at the dawn
Wishing it was theirs, but there’s no way

Beautiful Loneliness

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

She wanted to roar
to let out the pain
But she can’t
She said to herself, she can’t

They won’t understand
Only the rain can
She just kept in silence
She let it in

Till she drowned in her emotions
Like in the bottom of the ocean floor
She’s a pathetic girl that I know
A girl whom your eyes will see as she go

The Pain

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

(Originally posted on Poet’s Corner)

How do you escape the pain
That echoes from within?
Her heart torn apart
Pieces burnt from the start

Never felt worse, she can’t get out of bed
Can’t put the pieces together
Her broken heart cries and cries
Till there’s no words to describe

Numb and Devastated

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Photo Credit: Google Images

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

Is this true?
Am I just dreaming?
The only love that I knew just left
Have I got words unsaid?

Is this true?
Am I just dreaming?
Should I start crying?
Or should I still be hoping?

Is this true?
Am I just dreaming?
Is this for real?
Is there really nothing else to feel?

Drowning Deep Down

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Photo Credit: Google Images

A Poem by: Maria Elena Bitare

(Originally posted on Poet’s Corner)

Slow dance and sad music
I feel terribly sick
Love’s wrecked, I can’t fix
Now I’m falling to your feet

Upstream, I swim up
But I can’t reach the top
Downward, I drown
I can’t breathe, I can’t move

I’m so far from the shore
In doubt and I’m not sure
My love will fall short
Our love seems to distort